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# The Way I Used to Be: The TikTok sensation

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The Way I Used to Be: The TikTok sensation : Smith, Amber: desertcart.co.uk: Books

Review: Get ready to cry. - This book!! Oh my goodness it's fantastic. I got invested so fast and I couldn't stop reading it. I really love all the characters, especially Eden. I really love Josh too and I love them together. They support each other so deeply, they care about each other so much. I cried so many times while reading, I was afraid I was going to stain the book with my tears. And it was a library book. I cried even more when the book ended, I really wanted Eden and Josh to be together. So guess my reaction when I learned the second book is coming soon??? Feral. I can't wait to read that one so bad. I love this book so much, I had to buy my own copy. Can't wait to reread it again and cry myself to sleep.
Review: Beautifully heartbreaking! - “I always promised myself that if only someone would ask, if someone would only ask the right question, I would tell the truth.” What a frustratingly, beautiful and heartbreaking book. Eden is sexually assaulted by her older brother's best friend when she's just 14 years old and this book covers her high school years following the assault. This book HURT. Eden was frustrating, annoying and yet... I adored her. She pushed everyone around her away, she slept in a sleeping bag on the floor of her bedroom for years, she used casual sex to ignore her trauma. She makes awful decisions that are difficult to understand. She is not an easy to character to love. There was something heartbreaking about her thinking that no one would believe her for the last 4 years. Even when other women came forward, she still didn't think anyone would believe her. The book lost a star as I felt that her relationship with her family was not explored or explained, and it felt weak in comparison to the rest of the book.

## Technical Specifications

| Specification | Value |
|---------------|-------|
| Best Sellers Rank | 2,270 in Books ( See Top 100 in Books ) 1 in Young Adult Fiction on Sexual Abuse 2 in Young Adult Nonfiction on Social & Family Violence 3 in Young Adult Fiction on Social & Family Violence |
| Book 1 of 2  | The Way I Used to Be |
| Customer reviews | 4.4 4.4 out of 5 stars (11,167) |
| Dimensions  | 12.9 x 2.75 x 19.8 cm |
| Edition  | 1st |
| ISBN-10  | 0861546733 |
| ISBN-13  | 978-0861546732 |
| Item weight  | 294 g |
| Language  | English |
| Print length  | 384 pages |
| Publication date  | 12 Jan. 2023 |
| Publisher  | Rock the Boat |
| Reading age  | 14 years and up |

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## Customer Reviews

### ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Get ready to cry.
*by M***A on 18 September 2023*

This book!! Oh my goodness it's fantastic. I got invested so fast and I couldn't stop reading it. I really love all the characters, especially Eden. I really love Josh too and I love them together. They support each other so deeply, they care about each other so much. I cried so many times while reading, I was afraid I was going to stain the book with my tears. And it was a library book. I cried even more when the book ended, I really wanted Eden and Josh to be together. So guess my reaction when I learned the second book is coming soon??? Feral. I can't wait to read that one so bad. I love this book so much, I had to buy my own copy. Can't wait to reread it again and cry myself to sleep.

### ⭐⭐⭐⭐ Beautifully heartbreaking!
*by L***Y on 14 July 2025*

“I always promised myself that if only someone would ask, if someone would only ask the right question, I would tell the truth.” What a frustratingly, beautiful and heartbreaking book. Eden is sexually assaulted by her older brother's best friend when she's just 14 years old and this book covers her high school years following the assault. This book HURT. Eden was frustrating, annoying and yet... I adored her. She pushed everyone around her away, she slept in a sleeping bag on the floor of her bedroom for years, she used casual sex to ignore her trauma. She makes awful decisions that are difficult to understand. She is not an easy to character to love. There was something heartbreaking about her thinking that no one would believe her for the last 4 years. Even when other women came forward, she still didn't think anyone would believe her. The book lost a star as I felt that her relationship with her family was not explored or explained, and it felt weak in comparison to the rest of the book.

### ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ may have spoilers 🥹
*by E***T on 13 June 2025*

Reading The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith was an absolutely gut-wrenching experience. There were so many moments when I felt like I was screaming at Eden—begging her not to lie, not to push people away, not to make the choices that were clearly leading her deeper into pain and isolation. But that’s what made it so powerful: I felt everything. I was right there with her, in her spiraling world. I’ve never been so immersed in a book, never felt so close to a character that I could actually see a part of myself in her. Amber Smith’s writing is extraordinary. Her prose is raw and honest, and she doesn’t shy away from the ugly or uncomfortable parts of trauma. She gives Eden a voice that is both heartbreaking and fierce—so layered and human. Smith writes emotional pain with a kind of intimacy that feels almost too real at times, like you’re reading someone’s diary or inner monologue. And yet, it’s never gratuitous. It’s purposeful. She captures how trauma after sexual abuse can completely distort someone’s sense of self, of safety, of connection—how it becomes all-consuming when you don’t have the support you need. What’s especially brilliant is the way she writes her characters. Eden is not always likable, and that’s the point. She’s messy, angry, self-destructive—and so real. Her pain manifests in ways that are frustrating to witness, but never once did I doubt her. Smith doesn’t sanitize trauma, and she doesn’t simplify healing. Every character interaction—whether it’s her strained relationship with her family, her drifting friendships, or the flickers of connection and intimacy she finds—feels true to life. Even the secondary characters are written with nuance, often showing how complicated it is to love someone who’s hurting. Coming toward the end of the book, I felt like I was there. Like Eden’s voice was my voice. There were no moments that felt forced or cringe—just pure, unfiltered emotion that rang with truth. The writing was so realistic and immersive that I forgot I was reading fiction. And by the time I turned the last page, I had goosebumps. I was crying. Amber Smith did an incredible job showing the long-term impact of trauma and the desperate, sometimes destructive ways survivors try to cope. It’s one of the most emotionally honest books I’ve ever read, and it will stay with me for a long time.

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